Recently I've been wondering about the people in our lives. Don't you wish you knew the reason for each persons purpose was in your life? or what role you're supposed to play in their life? Recently I've started to understand the "star-crossed lovers" theory. Is there such a thing? or is that we want to believe it so that we think that there are obstacles in our life. I'm not just referring to our love life but to our work, family, and situations that we are placed in. Can we change the star crossed lovers theory? that it's not fate and that we can change that fate? or maybe it wasn't meant to be in the first placfed so it's not that fate is against us. I'm started to ask myself what I should do in certain situations. I've had many different occurrances this week that it's been deeep in my thought.

It was my grandpa's birthday and he turned 76 today! I love seeing my grandparents together they are so happy together. Whenever I ask about their relationship they start to get really secretive. We had an amazing meal!!!! and of course like all Japanese grandparents and relatives my grandpa wanted me to drink with him. I wish I could have a family life like him when i'm old.

I just came back from Fujimama's a restaurant in Harajuku with my coworkers. I decided I needed to get to know my new coworkers and I needed to be a little more social. I'm trying to create a lifestyle here in Japan where I can definately say it's also "home". The hard part is that it's soooooo hard to find pepople that you can actually relate to. Why do some people need to be so immature and insensitive? I would think that by the time you hit a certain age you have the understanding and the maturity level where you know how to act professionally. There are so many people that don't seem to have this professionalism and it really gets to me. I'm not saying I'm the most professional person but it's the common sense small things that make me think. Also why are people so cheap? when you socialize don't you learn to not be so cheap? especially if you're working and old enough to figure out your expenses?!? If you're not able to go out and spend money then don't go out!!! I guess I always thought that as I age people will also mature but I guess everyone is different and I need to accept that. It's so hard to do so when your values, and morals seem to be different. I started to think I was wrong but it's not about being right or wrong it's about learning to filter, figure out and accept these people. It doesn't necessarily mean that you have to become good friends with them.

The first week of school is finally over!!! My grandfather's b-day was today but I still haven't bought anything for him and I'm going to see him on Sunday. Tomorrow I'll go to watch Pirates of the Carribean!!!!

WOW I haven't blogged in sooooooooooooo long. Sorry to my loyal readers.... not sure if you guys still read this but I try to keep you guys in T.O. updated....... After having a nice golden week i was really really busy.... I've been working and doing an internet course and from Feb - June it was soooo busy here's a recap
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May
Golden - went to Izu with mari, chiho and ken. it was sooo realxing and fun. I wish I could take more road trips while I was here. Too bad we couldn't swim because the water was too cold still. The fish was great and I have so many memorable photos.
Shirley came to visit again!!! yeah!!! Thanks Shirley for letting me stay at your hotel i was sooo tired that night if I went home on the train I would have overslept on the train. Sent a mother's day gift... yes a CD of Fukuyama Masaharu.... my mom likes him... well i do too. School Picnic, Track and field day, and another Chivas party.

June - It was a crazy month with a trip to the zoo, summer visitors day, end of the year performance, report cards, and the finishing of school. Also I had so many no break days since the teacher that watches the students during my prep was away. mari's BBQ was fun!

July - Janice came!!!! well before that we had Jenn's farewell party, and everyone elses bye bye parties.... Shopped becasue of the sales... I think I shopped way too much (but the sales only happen twice a year). We went to tsukiji, Kyoto, Hot Springs, Tokyo (Shibuya, Harajuku)
Went to HK, Thailand,Vietnam and Cambodia. Cambodia was the most interesting place. Highly recommend it!!!!
Back to T.O.
August - Doctor's appointment for a physical - my arm was soooo bruised... yes here we go again my fainting spell didn't happen this time but it was so bruised that i had a band-aid on it for 2 weeks. I got to hang out with friends from middle school/high school, old friends, my Japanese girls, etc etc..... Too much drinking though!!! I have a friend who is not a good influence but I had fun going out most of the nights. I had one emotional day that I was there. I think it has to do with the realization of changes in your life and the lives of others. Some people change more than others and people go their separate ways. Going on a trip makes me realize something new..... I can't explain the change but I really feel it inside of me and I feel like I've become a more knowledgable person with insights that may have made me a beter person (depends on who looks at it). But I feel that I've changed for the better.

I wish I had more time with my parents and my brother. I would never tell my brother this but I do miss having talks with him even if we argue. He always has so many insightful things to say. Our family dinner at Mikado was great! I think my dad was the most pleased I haven't seen him that happy in a while. Maybe it's just my family or a Japanese thing but we tend to not show our emotions and apprecaitaion of each other. We argue and say what we feel like because we love each other!!!!

Hmmm so I've been back for almost two weeks. I started to work right away. It's been crazy getting everything together. Moving buildings, rooms, and this weekend I may have to work 6 days again..... The Gr.3 students are wonderful but I really miss my munchkins. I keep visiting them.

Yes I will try to blog more often!

Ever since I've been back I've done many new things!!! This is my new presepctive in life. Do everything and try everything new in this life time. I went hip hop dancing I love it!!!! I am soooo uncoordinated and I'm soooo bad at it. My instructor even laughs at me from time to time. I went Salsa Dancing. It was a lot of fun now this is my kind of dance esepcially because it's all depends on your partner. Yes GUYS all the steps and all the cues you need to send to the gal! I love it. but I don't have a partner to go with when I want to go dancing. I went to the AYU concert. She's sooo amazing live! Her set, lighting, effects etc. are all soooooooo amazing! I've been cooking everyday since I've been back..... what else. I went to the doctor and found out that my allergies were the reason why my ears were popping soooo much. so now I'm on medication for my dustmite allergies. JAPAN is full of DUST everywhere. I have a lot of spring cleaning to do during GOLDEN WEEK.

I thought my visit back to my hometown would make me realize that I was ready to go back there. I was wrong. As much as I love the green grass, multicultural nature, food, family and friends I realized that it wasn't like the summer where I didn't want to come back to Yokohama. It's a strange feeling Yokohama feels more like home to me and I missed it. I miss the food (like always), the fast paced life (athough it is tiring at times), and my sense of worth and need in the country. I actually feel that I am alive and doing something and that there is some odd reason for me to be in this country. I have so much more to experience here before I go back to Toronto or whereever else for good. I wanted to go to difference places, learn how to cook Japanese food, learn more Kanji (Japanese characters) and understand my own sense of self. Sure there are many negative things in this country but there is for every country. I actually feel that I am stressed and have too much to do here but I can actually tell you guys that I have never been sooooo healthy in my entire life. The only thing lacking here is my family and friends. But my relatives are here and so are my Japanese friends. It's strange but I finally feel that I'm not ready to go back not for another year at least.

I hope that my feelings can change and I can get a better perspective on my life.

THis week was CRAZYYY!
Parent's Day, Visitor's Day and St. Patrick's Day.
I even had to go to the doctor for them to fix my shoulders and back. I am getting old!!!
I played a trick on the kids telling them that there was a leprechaun in our school..... they really believed it. First the leprechaun messed up the whole gym and left gold pebbles.... then he took our drawings.... then he changed the gold pebbles into gold chocolates. The kids really believed it that they wanted to go look for the leprechaun at home hee hee sooooo cute

I am here. I guess a lot of people from Toronto didn't know I blogged. Wel I try to blog my thoughts in order to keep in touch and also to keep a record of my thoughts. It is a nice way to reflect and remember what was going on in your life at a specific time in your life. I wish I blogged more often. Yesterday I watched Bridget Jones. Yes I have a feeling I may end up as her. Sitting at home watching TV and no no not the smoking or the drinking too much part. But for some odd reason I connected with her meaning I am getting older. I am actually closer in age to her than when I was in high school..... scary but true. These last couple of weeks I think I've been under too much stress that my stomach is acting up on me again. It's back to the way it was in Toronto before I left in 2004. I am slowly regaining my health and I think it's just that I'm due for a break (March Break!!!) I'll be back in Toronto but I'm not looking forward to the plane ride or jet lag. As I get used to the jet lag in Toronto I'll finally have to leave for Japan again. Well nothing else much to say but I have so much to do for the next couple of weeks before I leave. Report cards, parent teacher conferences, parent's day, visitors day and also getting ready to leave ( yes I need to buy things that people want).

Adios!